Voice of the mind and the heart

There's a few time the mind telling me to let go..
But the heart says no..
There's a few time the heart getting tired of those feelings..
But the mind says please stay strong..
The mind and the heart just can't understand each other, do they?
I'm struggling..
and i'm tired..

Between the mind and the heart,
Nanie Anabell

Talking to the moon

Nda tau apa perasaan ni..
Kebelakangan ni hati mcm....sedih.
Banyak perkara menjadi punca.
..ntah macam mana mau luahkan.

Currently listening to my favourite song..
Talking to The Moon.

"At night when the stars light up my room,
I sit by myself,
Talking to the moon,
Tryin' to get to you,
In hopes you're on the other side,
Talking to me too..
Or am I a fool?
Who sits alone,
Talking to the moon..
Do you ever hear me calling?"

Kadang-kadang rasa mcm keseorangan....
wpun sebenarnya ada orang di sekeliling.

Feeling alone,
Nanie Anabell

Jejaka idaman

Ya Allah,
jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yg melabuhkan cintanya kepada-Mu,
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintai-Mu.
Amin.

Setiap orang confirm ada ciri-ciri pasangan hidup yg diimpikan.
And of course, semua pun mau yg terbaik..
..agar kita boleh menjadi lebih baik, kan?
Insya'Allah.

Apphewww, kenapa macam serius betul ni..hehe
Baiklah, memandangkan diri ini seorang perempuan, maka jum kita share sedikit tentang ciri-ciri jejaka idaman. So guys out there, pls take a note. Mungkin boleh dijadikan panduan. hehe


Aku inginkan seorang lelaki yang...

1. sayang sayeeee. itu pentinggggggggg. hehehehe

2. Ikhlas menerima seadanya.
(Kalau memang suda pindik, lurus bendul, lambt pick up, mcm siput, terima sj laaa, jangan komplen. ekekeke).

3. Blh membimbing dan bersama-samaku menuju ke jalan Allah. Amin.

4. Bertanggungjawab bkn shj sbg seorang suami, juga sebagai seorang ayah kepada anak-anak dan sebagai anak kepada ibu bapanya.

5. Romantik dan suka buat suprise. I looiiiikkeeee! hihihihi

Ini cuma list ringkas dan padat. Klu ikutkan, panjang lg ni. hahaha
Mcm orang selalu ckp, kita ni cuma manusia biasa.
So untuk dapatkan pasangan yg sempurna, yg semuanya mesti memenuhi kehendak pasaran, mungkin itu agak sukar dan klu ada pun, harganya agak mahal, sebab belum tentu orang tu mau kita, kan?
Maka dengan itu, sedikit peringatan dan nasihat kepada diri sendiri dan semua yang membaca, its ok la klu kita gagal temui atau miliki pasangan yg 100% mcm kita mau, cukuplah kalau kita disayangi dan dihargai dari segala aspek. InsyaAllah bahagia dunia akhirat. Amin.
Yang penting, cermin diri sendiri dulu. =)


Ok sebelum berakhir perkongsian kita pada hari ini,
jom kita bincang sikit tentang kriteria nombor 5 di atas.
Oh i just loveeeeeeeeee surprises okkkkk.
Making surprise and being surprised. Both of it. ngeh3
Tapi jangan silappppp...
Suprise ada byk jenis.
Ada suprise yg bikin panas, ada surprise yg bikin sakit jantung n ada suprise yg bikin terharu.
Sia suka itu yg numbul 3 itu. heheh
Ececece. huahuahua
Macam pelik pula berjiwang-jiwang ni tau.
Ok itu ja la. Malu i. Bye!

Bukan gadis idaman,
Nanie Anabell

Dreams

The invariable mark of a dream is to see it come true.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Lets talk about dreams.
FYI, ini budak kicik is popular known as the dreaming girl among her family and friends.
Yezzaa, thats what i always did. Dreaming dreaming and dreaming.
I've been dreaming a lot..
..and InsyaAllah gonna make sure all of it come true.
Amin.

There are some things that i never dream of, but suddenly....
TADAAAAA..i have it!
Sebagai contoh : Having my very own car.
Well yes, of course i want a car, but i never thought its gonna be so soon.
I don't even have my dream car yet. And hey, there she is -my little bumble bee- which i've owned tym masih bergelar pelajar lagi. apheww!

It's been 2 years now.
Syukur alhamdulillah and thanks to babah.
Will always take a very good care of you baby, dont worry.

Sebenarnya kan..
there's one thing that i never stop dreaming of since zaman kici-kici dolu. Eseh, mcm skrg sudah membesar. hahaha Nahhhh...since i was a kid.
Guess what?????
Yezzaaaaaaa..i want to have my very own crib yawww!

Been sketching the home design again and again, no matter when or where. Anytime anywhere. ehehehe
InsyaAllah i'll make it happen as soon as i start working.
Amin.
Ouhhh..i can't wait!

Never stop dreaming,
Nanie Anabell

Patient and Nurse

Alhamdulillah.

Suasana riuh rendah dalam rumah akibat bunyi batuk-batukan kini kian reda.
Batuk-batukan? Wujudkah istilah tu? Suka hati ja ni. heheh
I'm getting better now. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.
Betapa nikmatnya perasaan sembuh selepas sakit ni.
Ini la ubat-ubatan yang menjadi menu wajib sejak mula sakit hari tu.

Sebenarnya orang yang mula-mula batuk ni Kak Lyn, then followed by ibu, kakak and ME! huhu Pastu balik dari Genting, anak murid kakak lagi kena dan kami masih seperti itu, blm jg sembuh.
Mangsa terbaru ialah Adam Mikhail. Semalam Adam mula batuk-batuk and susah mau tidur. Cian. huhu
Ohooo..lupa, ada seorang lagi mangsa.
There he goes encik penasihat. Masuk hari ni 2 hari sudah MC.
Sebab apa? Sebab batuk yang menyakitkan dan melemahkan.
Woopss! Adakah saya puncanya?
Maaflah jika jawapannya YA. hahahaha. kejam ni. hihihi
Today I did a part time job. Yup, as a nurse. Nurse tidak bertauliah. Maka dengan itu, jangan cari saya klu sakit. muahehehe
Mula-mula bawa Adam p klinik. Pastu bergelut dengan adam tuk masukkan ubat ke dalam mulutnya. Punya susah. Pheww!
Lepas Adam tidur, bergerak ke rumah pesakit satu lagi. Hantar ubat.
Special kes pesakit ni, ada main delivery ubat lagi. Selalu pesakit yang cari ubat. Ceh. Nasib la ada nurse prihatin dan baik hati ni. Mana mau cari.
Apapun, semoga semua yang sakit akan cepat sembuh.
Kerana sesungguhnya, sakit itu amat menyakitkan.

Nurse tidak bertauliah,
Nanie Anabell

Holiday

Yayyyy, lamanya nda menaip di sini. heheh

It's been a long journey.

1st..family trip to Lahad Datu, my lovely cousin's wed.

Then konvoi ke Tawau, Sandakan dan Lawas.

Pastu balik Labuan.
Few days later, fly to KL and Genting, accompany my sistah.
Free2 dpt tinggal di Fisrt World. heheh

Best memang best..
Yang buat nda best...balik2 ja dari bercuti trus sakit jooo.
Di rumah ni macam ada pertandingan batuk suda ni.
Sahut menyahut batuk. Batuk siapa paling kuat. ehehe
Last Friday nite, i hang out wif my besties at MCD.
Malangnya nda dapat lepak lama2 sebab kesihatan yang tidak mengizinkan.
Muntah muntah la pula. huhu
Atas nasihat seorang penasihat, saya telah pergi ke klinik pada malam itu jg.
Ok sikit la ada ubat..tapi setakat ni belum juga baik.
Mudah-mudahan dengan izin Allah, sembuhlah cepat.
Amin.

Si pesakit,
Nanie Anabell

Watch out

Watch your thoughts,
as they become words.

Watch your words,
as they become actions.

Watch your actions,
as they become habits.

Watch your habits,
as they become character.

Watch your character,
as they become destiny...

Watch me,
Nanie Anabell

Soon

Tik tok tik tok tik tok.

Can u hear it?

The time is running out.

I'm going to leave them soon.

and so are they..

They going to leave me soon.

Oh no..

We going to leave each other soon.

which is..

..not cool.

..absolutely not.

Seriously,

I don't want to leave you guys so soon..

Time please stop, would you?

Never want to say goodbye,
Nanie Anabell

Rezekimu wahai pacat

1st time tengok..
1st time pegang..
1st time derma darah..
Semuanya 1st time..
tentang si pacat bkn nama sebenar..hmm..

Trip to air terjun Langanan last weekend mmg best..
tapi yang nda bestnya.....berkenalan dengan si PACAT.
Kalau dulu hanya si ular yg menjadi kegelianku,
tapi sekarang...si pacat telah menjadi ahli terbaru..oh No!
Bayangkan kita turun bukit senang hati ketawa2..
tiba2 tym mau bersihkn diri di bilik persalinan,
kelihatan 3 ekor pacat sedang menikmati darah di sebalik benang yg menyaluti tubuh..
Gumuk, sihat2 belaka, tanda sudah lama menikmati rezekinya..
Nda kamu rasa mau menjerit sampai pecah cermin tandas ka begitu????
Tuhan saja lah yg tau perasaan tym tu..
Di tepis2, nda mau jatuh..kuat gila melekat, boleh lawan gam UHU.
Di tarik2, memanjang pla badannya, flexible butullll..bari gali..
Mau nda mau berusaha ja la tarik smpai tecabut..daripada terus melekat di sanaaaa..yaii
Bikin bediri segala bulu di badan memegang badannya yg licin dan lembik itu..adui adui,cukuplah sekali...huhuhu

Apa pun...
gue tetap enjoyyyy ;)
another crazy exprience with those crazy friends of mine.
Biar penat, biar trauma, but still, i did have fun!
Siapa sangka insan yang SENTIASA bersukan ini begitu gagah untuk mendaki sehingga sampai ke air terjun Langanan.
Kagum dengan diri sendiri. kuang3
Thanks kamu..surely gonna miss it..:)

Bukan peminat pacat,
Nanie anabell

Your promise

"Make You Feel My Love"

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love.

This song reminds me of you.
'Cause u do make me feel your love now,
as u promise. :)

Thank you.
For everything.

Feeling your love,
Nanie anabell.

Realiti oh realiti

Cuti hanyalah satu fantasi yang diimpikan oleh setiap manusia.
Tapi realitinya?
Realitinya...
..di sebalik indahnya cuti, kerja suda distok setinggi gunung.
Naaaaa...kamu lupaaaa tu kannn..
Adoiiiiyaaaa.. realiti ohhhh realiti!
Hari ini..
aku bersedia untuk kembali ke alam realiti.
Dan esok akan kuhadapinya dengan penuhhh....
bersemangat?
Bah syukur la nakkk kalauuuu..
Apapun, amin. Betapa ku memerlukan semangat itu.
Dalam hati, dua bulan ja lagi, dua bulannnn ja lagi.
Berbekalkan kata-kata, setiap yang dimulakan pasti akan berakhir, eseh
akan ku gagahkan jua untuk menyiapkan kerja2 yang tersangatlah mengundang tekanan itu.
Kerana ku yakin,
kerja-kerja itu akan membiarkan ku hidup dengan aman jika aku segera menyelesaikannya.
Baiklah kerja. See u tomorow.
Fantasi ku sudah berakhir.

Pencinta fantasi, pembenci realiti
Nanie Anabell

Can I?

Can i ever hear u say 'harian ku' again?
'cause i miss to hear it.

Can i ever hear u called Fiza as 'Pisah' again?
'cause i just love making fun of her everytime u did it.

Can i ever eat your lamban and wajid again?
'cause u always good in making it.

Can i drink your tea 'o' during Hari Raya again?
'cause there's nobody else going to serve it for me.

And can i ask u to get the buah sukun for me if i want to eat it again?
Just like the last time we meet. Can i?

Ni aji, nani rindu nini.
Why so sudden?

Al-Fatihah..

Your granddaughter,

Nanie anabell

Do u remember?

It’s August.

Time really flies fast.
It is really fast, I mean it.

Last June,
I went for a holiday trip to Langkawi and KL.
Although it was just for few days,
still, i did have fun and enjoy every moment of it.
Thanks to Babah and Ibu for this great family vacation.
Buat la selalu yeee. mmuahh! hihihihi


No no. no. It wasn't a fun vacation.
Yup, wasn't fun.
It was just....
VERY VERY fun! hehehehe
Guess why?
Puas shopping????
tettttttt!!
..'coz si mr bodyguard came along with us. hihi

Happy. Fun . Enjoy

I remember the nite when we went out for a midnite movie.
At Pavilion's cinema, watching the Karate Kid.
Remember?
Credit to your sporting aunt for making this great unplan dating happened. hehehe
Not just for fetching us and drop us there,
but also for amazingly success to get us two blackmarket ticket.
Cool!!! hihi

Being there at the Pavilion during the world cup fever really make me feels like I am at the stadium.
Seriously. The atmosphere was so happening.
With the big screen and all the world cup maniac supporting their fav team,
make me almost forget that i was actually in a shopping mall.

Then i remember the another nite,
while everyone were lying tiredly in the room,
both of us suddenly decide to go to the uptown.
Remember?
It was also our another unplan dating, rite?
'Coz at that moment, you have to choose between meeting ur friend or ur aunt.
Then at last, you came out with the uptown idea.
Honestly, it's been a tiring day.
Spending the whole day walking around from shop to shop,
from the sun start to shine till the moon take over the shift..
But hey! my foot just can't stop walking. Amazing! hihi

What I miss the most is the journey that we took to get to your friend, Yus.
we ran up and down the stairs,
laughing and running crossing the road,
jumping in and out the LRT,
standing all along the way in it, enjoying the nite view.
And there he is, Yus, waiting for us.
Remember?
I miss it very much. :)

This time, credit to Yus for driving us around.
Comel ni tengok kamu act just like a kid,
so excited choosing those little croc pins, is it?
Entah what they call that, forgot dy.
Both of you were too excited making choices.
Ni comel, tu pun comel, ni smart, tu pun smart.
Mentang2 la croc kamu sama, sehati sejiwa la kunun beli pin. ehe
Oh, and thanks to both of you sebab sangat sabar.
Sabar tunggu sang puteri habis shopping. ekeke

Well thats it!
Really can't wait for our next happy memory to come.
'Coz the truth is, I just love being around you.
I'm free to be me.
Don't even have to hide my craziness.
I know u just love it rite, do u? ehe

I miss you.

Crazy girlfriend,
Nanie anabell

Dreams do come true.

On 30th of May 2010,
one of my dreams had finally came true.
..and it's earlier than i ever thought. hihi

Well, it's all about my dream gadget.
Guess what?
I have my very own baby now!
It's Canon 550d.
Yayy!! hihihihi

This is it.
It's the beginning of my photography world.
Alhamdulillah, thank u Allah.
Lots more to learn nanie!

Si amatur,
Nanie Anabell

New Look

Dear blog,
how have u been?
It has been long since my last update.
I really miss talking to you my silent listener.
I just done doing some renovation here.
Hope u guys like it.


Yours truly,
Nanie anabell

He knows.

When you feel all alone in this world,

And there's nobody to count your tears,
Just remember, no matter where you are..
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load,
And you wonder how far you can go,
With every step on that road that you take..
Allah knows


When you find that special someone,
Feel your whole life has barely begun,
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone..
Allah knows

When you lose someone close to your heart,
See your whole world fall apart,
And you try to go on but it seems so hard..
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose,
Through the valleys and hills we go,
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown..
Allah knows


Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.

Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.

Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.

Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.

Allah knows..
Subhanallah.

Hamba Allah,
nanie anabell

Sila check mata anda

Hi Labuan, i'm home!
It's 3 weeks to go before the hols begin.
..but here i am, escaping during my study week. wihihi
And ya ya ya, kalau suda namanya study week,
means there'll be an exam lerr, i noe.
..and i am soooo not ready yet. *sigh

Oh, cakap pasal balik,
it reminds me of this freaking shaming tragedy. Kuyak ging.
Just promise me you wont laugh, then i tell u, ok?
Just dont laaaa...pity me baaaa. huhu

macam ni...

Yesterday i ask ziema to drive me to the terminal bus. And FYI, ziema's car is a myvi. This is important for you to know ok, take a note plz. Its a cream white MYVI, pearl myvi.

As we arrived there, ziema cakap mau tunggu ja dalam kereta dengan lys. Gue pun turun la pi beli tiket. Then after done buying, i walked back to ziema's car dengan senang hatinya sebab suda ada tiket.

Sampai ja kereta, trus la ni pi buka tu pintu kereta. But aik? Its lock. Kunci la pulaaa. Cam besa la, sengaja ni tarik tarik lagi tu pintu, mau bagi signal tempat dorang yang the door is lock.

While waiting for them to open the door, i take a look around tengok2 orang sekeliling. But then suddenly, my eyes been attracted by something. guess what?

I saw ziema waving + laughing at me in the other car. huh?

I am so damn blurr. So I look back in the car which i am standing next to , with my hand on the door panel. I saw a little boy in the car. smiling. ai, bila masa ada budak ikut kami tadi ah? Pastu tengok lagi di front seat. ai, itu bukan lysly tu tauuuu.

Aha, u get it right?
I GOT A WRONG CAR bebeh!

It's a white VIVA dowww.
ya Allahhhh!
Tanpa menoleh ke belakang,
i walked as fast as i can towards ziema's MYVI and jump in.
Masuk2 ja dalam kereta, terus cakap,
"Jalan ziema, jalan cepat"
..dan yang kedengaran hanyalah gelak tawa ziema dan lys.
Saya malu.
Sungguh.

-the end-

Eye problem,
nanie anabell.

Please come back

It's midnite..
I suppose to be enjoying my dreams rite now.
But hey,
here i am.

I just can't sleep.
I'm wondering what kind of feeling is this.
what is it?

It's something..
..something that make me feels like....

....like i'm losing a BESTFRIEND.
A bestfriend that once upon a time i used to have.

Dear bestfriend,
i miss you..
Please come back.
i need you.

Tears..please don't fall.
nanie anabell.

Hati saya

Hati..
..saya sangka awak sudah sembuh.
Ternyata saya tertipu.

Hati saya..
..dia sedang menangis.

Hati saya..
..dia sedang menyembunyikan luka.

Hati saya..
..dia sedang menahan kesakitan.

Wahai hati,
tolonglah..

..berhentilah engkau menangis.

Wahai hati,
tolonglah..

..jangan biarkan luka lama terus berdarah.

Tolonglah wahai hati....
cepatlah..

..cepatlah engkau sembuh.

And to you my mr plumber..
..please don't give up on me.
'coz you are my only strength.

Pemilik hati,
nanie anabell

My best theraphy

I just love driving alone in the rain..


The view of the raindrop,
the touch of the aircond,
and the music that played,
..it makes a perfect mixture.
And yes, its my secret recipe,
secret recipe in calming myself..

Lots of things came through my mind..
I'm thinking..
thinking...
and keep on thinking.
WHY?
and it will always be why..
Trying to analyse all the things that had happened.
And even sometimes,
the tears just ran down silently..
..without me, myself, noticing it.

And then i just realize..
driving alone in the rain is actually one of my best theraphy..
..'coz it never failed to make me feel better.

Rain lover,
nanie anabell